I miss Charlene...

She went on for holiday, and yesterday i have the sudden urge to talk to her.
I cried yesterday... I dunno why i cried. Because of sad or scared? I dunno but it is because of my hair. When i apply the rice wine on my hair that time i discover a really large and visible hole[only when i tie up my hair], i told my sister about it and i nearly cried but i held back. I went back into my room and tried to sleep, but i kept tossing around and could not get to sleep... I could not breathe well and wanted to talk to Charlene badly... But she is not in Singapore, and i msg her even knowing that she would not reply. After msging her i start crying...

I went to bed at 1030 but one hour had passed but i am still wide awake. I find myself stupid crying over my hair but i can't help it... Then my phone received a message ad foolish me thought is Charlene and was so happy. But i ended up seeing Su Cheng's msg when i flipped open my phone[din mean to be rude]. I was so so so sad but i am okay now=] feeling much much better after crying yesterday.

A lot of thoughts went through my mind yesterday while i was trying to sleep. I was thinking why am i still dropping so much hair? It had been months since i started to drop hair. When i found out i drop hair i started to apply lotion but it doesn't help so i went to see doctor. i ate pills and bought expensive medicine but it doesn't help thus i went to see another doctor again. I had many many injections on my head but i accepted it thinking i would recover after the injections but it didn't. I went to ask medium and i went for body check up as instructed. I had my painful blood test done only to know that nothing is wrong with me. Not that i want a negative result but i went through the pain for nothing. I followed the instructions of the medium and took bitter medicine and tonics but it doesn't show any changes. And i even ended up with headache yesterday. Why is it so that i can't recover? It is not that i did not eat medicine, i did but i still can't recover.

My sister asked me are u still sad over your hair? I said of course la! She told me that time her hair drop to an extent that she did not even bother anymore. But she added ," but i did not drop a long as u did." Ya it's true and dropping hair for so long is sure a emotional torture for me and it is a long long one... How i wish everything that is happening now is a dream and when i wake up everything will be over... it is really a very terrible nightmare.

``jAnE oNg]] ^^
``161cm]]
``43kg]]
``4 jUnE 1990]]
``17 yEaRs oLd]]
``sInGlE]]
``FuLL tImE PoLy StUdEnT]]
``DEPM / FT / 1A01]]



pReSeNt
``to pass all my modules
``to be love by everyone
``to be able to survive in poly
``my rashes to recover

fUtUrE
``bubu to be always here
``to find a good job after i graduate
``to have my own room
``have a own study table
WaNtS
``a lasting bag
``to buy shoes
``to buy jeans
``to buy nice shirts
``have a hair cut soon
``to have gathering every once a month[at least]
``sing songs
``shopping
``movies
``chalets
``overseas trip with darings and friends

``I love white colour the most
``I love my family
``I like being alone when i'm tried and moody
``I love watching korean drama
``I love to cry when i feel like it
``I like watching stars
``I like to soak in water when i'm unhappy
``I like listening to soothing songs
``I love it when my mom say it's okay
``I love when my friends were there for me when i needed it
``I love to slack with my darlings
``I love talking with my sister
``I love chatting with alicia as though we had not seen for years
``I like sunny days when i'm sad
``I love rainy days when i'm at home
``I love it when u say i'll be there for u
``I love we study tgt

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~DEPM / 1A01]]*
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``everyone is born and everyone matters...
``one will find one's happiness one day...